A quiet Space for me.
I believe there is a very fine balance between learning to listen to God’s voice and lean on His strength and refining our personal spiritual practices. However, I do believe there is a portion of it that comes from self-obedience, goal setting, and self-reflection. I can’t even begin to tell you how many months of January have come and gone and I find myself dusting off my collection of half- completed prayer journals, devotional books (personal, family and couples), and that new Bible. This will be the one I’m motivated to finish the “Read the Bible in a Year” plan. I then convince myself, that this New Year’s resolution will be the one to keep up with all of these spiritual practices. I can become more obedient and faithful to learn more about my relationship with my Creator.
Then, March rolls around and there are empty entries for personal prayers. The Prayers for others list hasn’t been prayed over or thought about twice. A Bible sits that hasn’t been opened in months. Devotional books have been moved around the house in numerous spots -kitchen counter, dining table, nightstand, bathroom… I am determined each will be the perfect location for me to find time to sit and read. Then the guilt sneaks in. The voice of doubt looms dark. I will never get to the point of keeping up with all of the spiritual practices I would like to refine. So why keep trying? I’ll just wait till next year to start again.
I will then completely ignore all of my spiritual tools and resources to become closer to God. There is that wall of guilt and self-righteousness. Then I hear Him. “ Watch and pray that you may not enter into temptation. The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.” Mark 14:38
That is when HIS voice whispers into my soul, “Turn to ME for strength, give yourself Grace when you fall short, you need ME”. I’m so thankful that I have a loving Father who always gives me grace. However, I continue to struggle when reflecting on the past years. I always fall into this same trap. The trap of high hopes to keep up with various spiritual disciplines and the disappointment within a couple of months. I believe that I am nothing without God's’ provision, guidance and voice. I really need to be spending time with the Father to intentionally pray for obedience and mentors to guide me. Time to relook at tools to help me in my spiritual disciplines. Time to identify those areas that God is wanting me to focus on at this point in my life. Time to create the space to become closer to Him, that I may bring others to Him. Time to self-evaluate and be brutally honest with myself in giving my “Best Yes”.
(I highly recommend Lysa TerKeurst’s book “The Best Yes”-Discerning God’s Voice in your Daily Decision Making) What can work in the busy days of a stay-at-home mom of two young children? I’m in need of a Spiritual IEP. More next post…...
Thanks to Contributing Writer- Sara Wilson